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BelleJar:
Sheila: When you got off the block, there was a comment made after Jen and Parker were evicted. I can't remember what you said, but it bugged me.
Alli: Can you remember basically what you said?
Sheila: No, it just irritated me. You have to remember where my pysche was too. I was not eating, no sleep, physically and emotionally draining. Your excuse was you had the hypothermia wanted to get with Ryan, but you were with more than Ryan. I felt a huge detachment from you, and I felt when I walked into a room that I was a bother.
Alli: First of all I'm very sorry that you felt that way. From the day we walked into this house, I've adored you and . . .
Sheila: ditto
FLAMES> :pull
BelleJar:
Alli: (Now crying) I've asked everyone why they think you've distanced yourself from me.
Sheila: what Adama say?
Alli: He said it was Amanda. But, its more than the game.
Sheila: you haven't told people not to trust me?
Alli: I've never said you weren't trustworthy. I've told people, especially when you ran out of the diary room crying. People don't understand that.
Sheila: I was truly crying because I was upset about you leaving. Plus, I was trying to play it, but it didn't work.
Alli: Well, J/s and J/C both asked me what was up with that. I was trying to play it that you weren't voting for me.
Sheila: So you never told anyone not to trust me?
Alli: I've never said that, but people think you're acting.
Sheila: I acted for you to save you. I did it for you because truly I came into this house not knowing how to play this game. Just by your comment about what youjust said, makes me feel like I"m not worthy to be here. Let's just clear this up. You come in while I'm talking to Nat, and youmake the comment that you can't believe I didn't go through the same process the rest of you did.
Alli: You're totally misreading me.
Sheila: but why would you say that.
Alli: We had so much to go through.
Sheila: I had to go through everything you did.
Alli: YOu're totally misunderstanding me.
Sheila: Me being 45 I am the odd man out, I'm of another generation. This has been extremely stressful. I just want you to know that whatevers happening in this game right now was not planned, thought out, it has just happened. This is how the cards had fell. I told myself I was going to find the strongest person, the strongest player. We clicked right off, we did start an alliance from day one. My theory on how to play this game was blown out of the water on day on.
BelleJar:
Sheila: its not easy for anyone. Have I come into this game and been honest with you? Absolutely. I can't play this any other way. I didn't know anything about this game before I got here. Thank god I didn't because it wouldn't have helped me anyway. Think about it. This is real, what goes on in this house is real people dealing with real issues and eventually your true inner self is going to come out. And, you know what I've only been me in this game, and to my fault I trust everyone, until I get a gut feeling that makes me uncomfortable.
Alli: Can we just talk?
Natalie: You're taking it to the mountain. My eardrum is about to be blown out. Giggle.
Sheila: I'm sorry youv'e been hurt by that, but I've been hurt too. I wasn't trying to hurt you, I went with something that made me uncomfortable. I'm not bringing up your education, I'll bring up mine. I'm a high school drop out. I envy the women in this house that have had an opportunity to do that. I've always wanted to go back and educate myself and its really difficult. This game has been a lot harder for me. I'm a people person. I left home at 14 years old, I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me, and I feel like I've been gifted over and over again. Moving to NY when I was 18 years old, all I had were survivor skills. I had ups and downs in my life even living in a mansion. I had to create my own family living in a mansion with other people and their kids.
Flames.
Whew!
puddin:
Wow Belle :jam:
Sharon Josh & Adam eavesdropping
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BelleJar:
Alli: I was encouraging you that if they wanted you to be host to overcome those fears.
Sheila: I know that.
Alli: I wish that you had come to me, because that would have eliminated a lot of problems.
Sheila: you deal with people on a different level. I deal with people on my heart and myg ut.
Alli: Me too
Sheila: But its different. We can't trust anyone. But, you know, all i can do Allison is go with my gut because that's what I went with my whole entire life. People can give you anything at face value, but your gut will never steer you wrong.
Alli: SO you're saying that everytime your heart and gut has never steered you wrong?
Sheila: never.
Alli: Well, I'm just going to tell you that you were wrong with how I was thinking about how it took you to get here. I didn't mean that you don't deserve to be here. I was just curious. I was thinking wow, what an amazing person that can put this together. I was in awe. It just shows me that you really don't know me and the type of person.
Sheila: THe point is we're here now. I don't have any bad feelings about you at all.
Alli: I just want to go back to the points you mentioned. As soon as I've gotten off the block, and I was very grateful you voted to keep us here, Ryan and I, I'll just tell youwhat my thought process was. At no time, and I want to make this pyschotically clear, did I intend to push you away. With the eviction, you'll never understand it becaus you're not there, you don't believe until you hear it from Julie. Right after that, I had so much going on. You know, I talked to you about it. I was wondering if Ryan was even going to pull through, love is apowerful thing.
Sheila: That's why I didn't want Ryan to know what my vote was.
Alli: Yeah
Sheila: you could have told the other people that's why you did.
Alli: Right after that, it was the HOH competition, seriously that next day, my whole body was crushed.
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