James HOH cont..
James says that when he saw Ivette crying, and Howie telling Rachel that her life is worth nothing, and that she has nothing to go back to, then he realized that Sarah would be a lot more proud of him if he let go instead of holding on for revenge. He says that he would not have someone like Sarah or the friends he has if he was the kind of person that would have held on for revenge. He says that if he has to go home this week, then he realizes that it is the game, and he has had a good time. He says that the week Sarah left, something happened that made him want to stay. He says that he did not want to leave Sarah here and make her deal with everything. He says that when he won the veto, then the same people who wanted to vote him off came right back to him and were nice to him and it was only because they were scared.
He says that Janelle went to him the morning after Veto, and asked how they are and they said that under the circumstances, fine. Janelle told him then that she hasn't talked to Howie yet so she doesn't know for sure, but that they both might be able to stay. He says that Janelle told him and Sarah later that Jenny and April were going to vote Ivette off, but had changed their minds. But then Janelle Howie and Rachel came to them and asked why they weren't doing anything about it. James said for one reason, that Ivette was on the block, and it would have meant campaigning against her, and also he didn't see any way that Sarah could be saved, so he didn't want to get her hopes up.
Jenn asks him...he says that he doesn't want this to be about revenge, but now he is saying that he wants revenge against the other side. James is saying that he wants revenge, but only within the game, and he is not willing to do anything to get it. He says most of them cant trust him, and he understands that, but he doesn't want to win, he only wants to get the other team off.
Bo asks if he is sorry for any of the stuff he has done. He says that he feels sorry for some of the things that have happened, so he could apologize for that, but some of the things he had to do, and cant change, so they would just have to agree to disagree.
April asks what if Rachel or Howie get HOH next week....would he go to them next week and ask them to take him back? James says that he is not playing for the game now, and to do that would embarrass himself, and disrespect Sarah, and would be against all the reasons why he wants to stay in this house. :ZZ:
