About Mikey B, from her blog.
On a personal level he was one of my favorites out there, and it was so painful to see him leave… probably more than I’d ever admit to him or anyone else. It’s hard because I knew everyone was voting him out and I thought that if I didn’t write his name down, then it somehow proved to him, at the very least, that I cared. He didn’t see it that way. I told him I would never lie to him, but I also didn’t tell him he was going home that night and I think it would easily be categorized as betrayal. At first I hid behind the cheap excuse that I didn’t “vote for him,” but probably more a pathetic attempt to deflect an obvious omission and chik in the armor of my integrity.
In retrospect, my voting for Chet was a paltry, selfish attempt to make myself feel better for not being honest with someone who I had come to care about and that almost makes it worse.
Looking back, people wanted him gone; paranoia, jealousy, insecurity, we can chalk it up to whatever, but they had made up their minds. And it’s easy to say it’s just a TV show, a game even, but for us, it was our reality. While I have multiple weaknesses, one of my greatest strengths is I have no problem admitting when I’m wrong. I was with regard to Mikey. I probably could not have saved him from going home that night, but I could have trusted him more. I could have been honest. I could have done a lot of things different I guess. He should not have been voted out; we needed his strength, his will and his infectious smile.
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