I'm on the road again....
So tired but very happy.
I just finished watching Ep 3, a friend downloaded it for me and left me a copy for my mac.
Actually I'm not as upset as I thought I was going to be.
It was such a horrible day.... starting from HK. So.... you guys know the truth.... that's all I need.
The funniest part for me was the cut when I said, It's really hard to be objective with her... then it cuts to her not knowing even what Hazard lights were. How can you drive without knowing where or what hazard lights are??? Come on, she can't blame it on her "English" yet again. She's been speaking English for at least more than 4 years constantly in Asia. That was SO funny!! That was just a taste of how ridiculous things were for me. Before she started driving, she even asked me if P was DRIVE on the automatic stick! I knew that was not caught on tape. So I was really surprised to see this footage, I thought she got away with a lot of her stupidity moments. It's just not normal being with Aurelia.
Come on give me a break.... I'm only human.
Anyway, I think it was fair they showed the part I told her she couldn't climb. You know the reasons why I pushed her so hard. We had no chance of making it unless we were one of the middle teams, we had a penalty waiting for us.
The part I said, "I would rather give up the race than to trust you again".... I was not talking about her not being able to climb, it was her DRIVING skills. I was driving most of the time, and I knew I was done by then. I was totally gone but I was so frustrated from getting lost. We both were.
When we finally got to the vineyard, I thought that was it. That's why I rushed to open the clue. I was left with no more emotions. At spookers, at first I was just playing around, looking scared for the camera because it was the ONLY emotion left in me, but they were SO good, these actors, they just did a great job. They were so good at popping out of nowhere!!! So at some points, I did jump quite a bit. But more so..... I just wanted to SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT..... FOR THE HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS..... I COULD NOT SCREAM IN THE CAR..... out of frustration of the day.... ouT of being eliminated. Even if we were 8th that day, it wouldn't have mattered.
And plus I think I'm quite intuitive to these spirituality. You know when you walk into a place, say a new apartment you can feel the vibes of a place. I'm very good with that! If only this transcended with people for me. What a skill I would have. Spookers I can tell you, is not a "clean" place for sure! It used to be a mental hospital and many died there.
Anyway, the place WAS HUGE! I was so tired, just wanted it to end. The house also had the strangest stench ever, it's like you can't breathe. I think it's from all the makeup and fabrics they used to decorate the place. You guys can't see it, but it's SO well done. I was really impressed. It had huge ballrooms, jails, surgery rooms, bodies hanging from the ceilings, butcher knives everywhere. Ghosts grabbing you and screaming so loudly in your ear.
Plus they all must have been so tired by then. We made them wait so so so long!!!! We felt really bad about it. Everyone was so so so tired. Even the crew was so "glad" to finally see us.
After shooting this last scene, we made our way back to the car. They made us hide, but I popped my head out to see how Brett & Kinar were. My heart sank. With how bad I felt that night, I can't imagine how horrible they must have felt. We still didn't know what happened to them. I popped my head up and just to check that no harm had come to them, they were both walking fine, hand in hand as always.
The whole time the next day, they were in my thoughts. I just kept wondering and wishing. I PROMISE AT THAT TIME, I WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP 8TH PLACE TO THEM BECAUSE I THOUGHT THEY DESERVED IT MORE THAN US AND THEY WOULD HAVE MADE BETTER USE OF THE 2ND CHANCE. I felt it in them.... even though I didn't know them too well then.
Brett and I recalled that night many times, wondering what really happened. This was the beginning of our friendship.
Brett is an AMAZING person, he's just the coolest guy one can ever meet or befriend. When I met his mum at the Singapore preview screening in mid-Nov, I told her what a great son she has. And I told him that if I ever am lucky enough to have a son like Brett, it would be such a blessing to be a mum. Kinar and I have quite the same quick reaction at times, so she relates to me very well. She's very lucky to have Brett, someone with a cool and calm character to be her balance. This was a BIG thing I learnt from watching and knowing them. It's a character that I see and realised in a few of my close friends and I appreciate them for being the way they are with me even more (after my race experience).